Sunday, September 26, 2010

Love List #1

I am really working on getting my creative juices flowing. Since getting into a semi-regular writing/posting routine, I have been poking around to read other blogs and network within the blogging community. There are lots of awesome women out there writing about similar things each with their own unique style. Most, if not all, of these blogs integrate a "Love List." 

A Love List is basically a shout out to things that you love in your life. Huh. We don't really take the time to think about that a lot. We just kind of motor and race through each day, multitasking, crossing things off the list, e-mailing at warp speed, and at the end of the day we crash and do it all over again, day after day after day. I am taking on the challenge of posting a Weekly Love List with some of my favorite things and I encourage you to do the same. Check Out one of my favorite women, Kris Carr, healing goddess, spiritual guru, and motivation mama to see her blog and her love lists.

Love List: Staying Grounded In Chaos
#1. My Vision Board: This vision board is posted right above my desk at home. It reminds me to stay authentic to who I am and what my philosophy on life is about, especially when I get caught up in stress or drama. It is a constant truth but has space for new things to come in. Checkout How to Make a Vision Board for ideas and inspiration from Christine Kane.

#2. Creativity Daily: I used a Barnes & Noble Gift Card for my birthday to purchase a sketch book. I had a package of Crayola Colored Pencils and so I just started drawing and sketching. The biggest thing for me is giving myself permission to go and create with no boundaries or judgments. I have been trying to carve out time a couple days during the week to be gentle and be in touch with my inner child. One of my favorite women out there who is a great resource for getting in touch with your creative spirits is SARK.

#3. Hot Tea: I would have to say that I am probably one of a few people who live in Seattle and don't drink coffee. I am a tea person. I have multiple boxes of tea, both bags and loose leaf in my kitchen because I love it. Usually, I'll have a to go mug in the morning sans caffeine and a cup before bed. Hot tea always brings me back to the present moment. Sipping it is very relaxing and grounding and familiar. I think I might just have a cup after this fave brands: Stash, Yogi Tea, and Traditional Medicinals.

#4. Netflix & iPods: Even though I can be described as a self-proclaiming hippie chick, I am all about technology that works. Now, please don't think I run out and get the next phone or gadget the day after release because I am way too broke to do that. So, I have two items that make my life just a little better and bring a smile to my face and that is Netflix & my iPod. First of all, I love the idea of not paying for late fees or gas to get movies. Also, I love the Watch Instantly and the rating feature. Kudos to you Netflix people and iPods, there really isn't anything else to say except they literally and figuratively rock my socks off.

Patagonia Women's Tranquila Capri Leggings
#5. Patagonia Yoga Pants: Simply put, they are my "Do Everything Pants." Sleep, walk, run, clean, errands, gym, cook, yoga pants. They are soft and organic. They make me sink into my couch just right after a crazy day. Also, they remind me to breathe and stretch.

#6. Doggies: So Ginger isn't technically my dog. Her owner is my fabulous man and he shares her with me quite generously. The thing about Dogs is they are so patient and peaceful. They are accepting and non judgmental and just plain ol' awesome. Ginger makes me laugh because she is quite human. She loves doing yoga with me and she also find solace in the duvet cover. She forces us to get outside daily and is that constant love we both need in the midst of chaos. 

All of these things are somewhat small, yet keep me grounded when things get crazy. I could go on and on but I want to leave you with some room to come up with your own list. Stay tuned for next weeks Love List...I will be taking you to all my fave Soulful Seattle Spots.

Saturday, September 25, 2010

The Three Journeys: (Part 2 of a 3 Part Series)

A few posts back, I had just seen the movie Eat, Pray, Love," and came up with my word: Journey. Well, I embarked on writing a three part series about three journeys that have shaped me into who I am today: The Journey of Yoga, The Journey of Love, and The Journey of Blissful Livelihood. So, here I am, writing about my Journey of Love. Hahaha. Yeah right. What the hell do I know about love? Perhaps I have been avoiding this post because of how confronted I am about the whole thing. Or maybe it's because I think love is so different for every single human being and who am I to try to articulate into a blog post?

Let's start at the very beginning, which according to many, is a very good place to start. My first real boyfriend that I had was in seventh grade. It was pretty textbook. He liked me, I liked him back. Very immature. Our first kiss was at the middle school dance. He bit my lip and I bled a little. It was overwhelming on the inside. Not only was I 13 years old and going through all these massive transformations on the inside and outside, but my mom was a teacher at the school and she was informed of my playground kissing by my homeroom teacher. Yep. I was super embarrassed and mortified. Then, he broke up with me and that is when middle school started to suck. 

There were a bunch of little crushes and dating thrown in there to spice things up but I really wasn't all that into the boyfriend thing. I played basketball and was your typical geek/overachiever student. 8th grade completely sucked. That was when the division happened: popular or not popular. Lunchroom politics and hallway whispering took over everybody's life. It was a he said/she said whirlwind and I wanted no place in it. I hated going to school but told myself that high school was right around the corner. 

Fast forward to Fall 1999 and I was a freshman soccer player, loving the high school scene. I meet Freshman Boy. I fall for freshman boy. I fall hard. I get serious with freshman boy. Freshman boy and I date through Sophomore year. Now, sophomore me is dating sophomore boy and then sophomore boy breaks my heart and started to treat me not so good. 

Fast forward now to Spring of 2003, I graduate from High School and get out of dodge. (a.k.a Maine). I move to Colorado for college and meet Alaska Boy who breaks my heart. Then I fall in love with Mountain Boy who I was in total and complete love with. We climbed and skied together, cooked delicious meals together, lived together, and then I graduated and moved to Seattle for a job. Of course, neither of us wanted to make the break when I moved, so it was super undefined. It was a half long distance special with a side of sour feelings. When I move to Seattle, I meet the Office Manager of my company I am working for and we become best friends. We do everything together and he takes care of me like a best friend would: fixes my car, helps me move, we watch movies, and go eat good food.

Fast forward to June 2008. Mountain Boy moves to Seattle. We live the Seattle life in a small one bedroom.  He struggles with employment and then he gets really sick. He was hospitalized for two months and then diagnosed with chronic lyme's disease. Not good. Fast forward to December of 2009 and drama ensues. The lymes disease is so advanced, it got into his brain. He is hospitalized again and I am left alone. Mountain Boy and I break up and he moves away. I am on my own for the first time in a long time and I am scared. Ex-Office Manager/Best Friend is there for me. Fast forward to March 2010 and I am dating Ex-Office Manager/Best Friend. We are happy and in love and exploring what it means to be in a relationship with one another. 

Fast forward to September 25, 2010. Ex-Office Manager/Best Friends and I are still best friends and partners. We have been dating for six months and things are great. Things are hard, but still great. We compliment the hell out of each other and laugh until it hurts. We know that our love is a journey and we take steps everyday on that path to make it matter. We know that we are in it for the long haul and it takes a village to make love work. 
So, here I sit writing about this very boring linear journey of love. Although it sounds so linear and straight, my journey of love is a constant circle. I go around and around, drawing from each partnership I have had and take lessons and apply them to every relationship I have. What I can say for sure is that we all have the innate need to be connected and loved. We love to love and when we have love, we also have loss. The grief and the tears are just as important as the love, even though it sucks so bad and hurts on the inside. 

I asked my man this morning  the following question: "When was that moment you knew you loved me?" and he said, "When it hurt. That's when I knew I loved you." It brought tears to my eyes and I knew in that moment, I was traveling this journey with the right person. 

Sunday, September 12, 2010

*~A Little Love for Your Week~*

I just love this video. It makes me smile and cry. Happy Sunday evening and I hope you have a great week.

Saturday, September 11, 2010

Go Army: A Brotherly Dedication

My brother Nate was visiting me in Seattle last weekend for the first time. I had not seen him since the Holidays and it was truly a great visit. He cooked some amazing chile, we went to a Mariners game, took the train to Vancouver, and did so much more.  I smiled a lot as I looked at him all grown up and mature. He is leaving for the Army in October and the focus of the visit was spending as much time together before he leaves.

We went downtown and went inside the Army Navy Surplus store on 1st Avenue. I bought myself a grey ARMY shirt for the gym and reflected for a few minutes on how his choice has affected me. He signed his papers in May and since then I have been doing a lot of reflection and personal work. I have struggled internally with his decision and am opening not only my mind, but my heart as well as he embarks on this new endeavor, a journey that will for sure change his life.

Up until this visit with him, I thought that as the older sibling, I should be the one teaching the lessons and being the role model. Well, I really got clear on the lessons that Nate has taught me about life, living, and love and here they are.

Lesson #1: Sweat Everyday. It's Good For You
Lesson #2: It's okay to be the only person dancing. As long as you are good.
Lesson #3: Impulsiveness can be your best friend and your worst enemy.
Lesson #4: Hold your friends close. They are the next best thing to family.
Lesson #5: You can be liberal & conservative at the same time.
Lesson #6: If something isn't fun, just add food.
Lesson #7: Competition is healthy. Teamwork is healthy. Laughing is healthy.
Lesson #8: Don't take yourself too seriously.

Lesson #9: Manners are important but they are not the only thing that makes a person.
Lesson #10: Be the best sibling you can be. Oh yeah, be the best you can be at everything you do.

Nate is an amazing young man. He makes me laugh until I pee my pants. His humor and amazing thirst for life is something I hope he never loses. I love him and will miss him.

Go Army.