Tuesday, February 26, 2013

missing the oomph

Lately, I have been feeling as though I am missing the oomph. If I had to guess, it's been a mix of things: a combination of not feeling super motivated, experiencing a change in my work schedule, and not being super intentional with my scheduling around self-care and wellness. So, that is the what...now, the so what.

So in all of this, I can be forgiving. Practicing the art of acceptance and being gentle with myself has always been a struggle. Now, in the second month of the new year, 2013, the year of Blissful Velocity, I am not feeling like I am attacking life the way I started out. I have lost some of my oomph. As I wrap up the last few days of February, the shortest month of the year, I can honestly say February had some road blocks:

Reflections on the Roadblocks:
-Struggling with some health issues which caused me to spend some days resting and doing nothing else.

-I let go of my meditation practice that nourished me in January. I just didn't make the time and instead, soaked in bad tv, mindless nights on the couch and too much frozen yogurt.

-I wasn't being intentional with my schedule (i.e. getting up earlier, hitting the gym, making the time for the things that matter like my writing and my quiet time)

-My eating habits loosened up in a way I didn't feel super good about.

-I found myself snapping and being impatient with The Man more than I wanted

All that aside, there were some really awesome things about February:
-There was a lot of celebration. A wedding, a birthday party, a great Valentine's Day date, and other awesome date nights through the month. I realized how much I value the time I get to spend with The Man outside of our day to day grind.

-I kept consistent sleeping hours. I went to bed earlier during the week, sometimes as early as 10pm and it made me a much more productive human.

-I started taking walking breaks at work. Since Seattle weather has been quite mild, I have been embarking for at least 20-30 minutes daily and getting some Vitamin D. It has done wonders, especially when I have had to work late.

-February included lots of connection. My mom made her trip reservations for April, I reconnected with a wonderful friend/mentor, and hung out with friends who make me laugh.

-I stuck with my Yoga practice. I realize more and more that my yoga practice is my rock. It is my therapy, my solace, my respite from the chaos. It serves me and carries over to other areas of my life.

Looking into March:
March will be a month of newness. The weather continues to stay mild, which means more time outside, the garden is coming back to life, and there are areas of my own life I want to nourish:
-My meditation practice
-My writing
-My fitness

I am continuing to work my financial health and it feels so good. Seeing the debt reduce is exciting. The Man is a huge mentor to me around this.

I am so thankful for what February has provided. Some great lessons and some awesome memories. I am so looking forward to springing into spring.

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